with terminal hearts

something bittersweet in this longing. something that runs past surface deep. to the soul and belonging. and you’re both wrecked and made whole in one night. the symphony of melody reliving the tension and fight. then rearranging within until you view. the perspective of wonder and hope. I dare you to move. to keep living…

love never leaves a heart where it found it

Ever since it turned March, I’ve been holding my breath. Along with that calendar page transition, something inside gave way, something that has been building and layering itself within my story for the past year. Last March, everything in my life was completely inside out and I felt like my heart was hanging by a…

when your heart is afraid of bad news

  You always remember the dates. January 18th 2017. “The day my world changed but God did not.”  I remember the events of that night in fragments, the fragility of life and beauty of a hope beyond our own colliding. It was Wednesday night of the second week in to the semester, and I was…

with no anxious fear

what does it mean to trust and wait with no anxious fear? this is the simple yet complicated question that swirls around your rhythm of life. it began as a simple lyric tucked into a song repetitively used to flood your mind when all else hits levels of insanity that tear you apart. but this…

Hello Hurricane

Help me see beyond this picture. Widen my perspective and view to realize there is something beyond this story unfolding. May I trust it even when I cannot see it and all feels like invisible pressure and silent terror stealing my heart’s blood + beat. Switchfoot’s Vice Verses Deluxe Album fell into my Spotify shuffle…

This Hope I Hold is My Reality

Today, as light filtered in stained glass and time-honored hymns rose in chorus, I cried. Today, I needed that truth more than ever. This Resurrection Sunday, I needed the hope of life forever with Jesus. A hope that is real and true, evident despite the tangled threads of life that are twisted otherwise, obscuring it….